I know you must be thinking, ”Not again!” But fear not! Today, I do not address you to lament or blame you for my own mistakes and misadventures, I write to you today to let you know what I seldom say to you- ”Thank you!”
Yes, you heard it right! I want to thank you…not only for the blessings that you brought along my way but also for the tears that taught me valuable lessons. As I look back at the time gone by, I realise that a lot of years have passed and what I am today is nothing but a culmination of the moments and experiences you brought along. You were the best and the biggest gift my parents gave me. I may not remember my first cry on opening my eyes in this world, I may have no recollection of my first smile…but you were witness to them all. You hold these dear in some precious iota of time, just as dearly as the moments we both get nostalgic over…my first heartache, my first step into adulthood, the first time someone called me ‘Dr Saab’ and so many others firsts and lasts.
You have been my mirror whenever I’ve doubted myself, making me see my strengths and weaknesses in full view, letting me make learned decisions. Sometimes, I took the right ones and sometimes those that were utterly wrong but those were my flaws. I blamed you for my gaffes, held you responsible for the tribulations but it is not that I never knew the truth. You were my punching bag, I could blame you and forgive myself!
My rebellious teens hardly held any love or respect for you.I wanted to stretch you to your limits, endanger you and laugh over it, hardly understanding how close I came to lose it all. Thank you for patiently holding on! When I lay in the hospital and oscillated between you and death, you pulled me towards yourself with all your might and we made it. Thanks for giving me a second chance!
So much changed with passing time and I discovered love, formed new relationships and learnt your complexities. Amidst all this came a time when roles reversed and everything came a full circle. I created you and that day, with the birth of my daughter, I discovered a new love for you…a love that was filled with awe and fear at the same time. You, dear Zindagi, are enigmatically beautiful indeed!
Where we both stand today is the result of my choices. I could have done things differently, maybe I could have brought us to a better place, I am not sure but I appreciate the fact that you never blamed me or expressed regret.
I don’t know what you have in store for me for the times to come but I have faith in you. I know that you may not be able to exclusively bring joys my way but I also know that with every obstacle, you will bring along the courage for me to pass over it. I do not know how long our association shall be but I do know that it is going to be one hell of a ride, just as it has always been and I am ready!!
Thank you once again!
Looking forward to the rest of our journey together!!
Author’s note: “I am writing a letter to life for the #DearZindagi activity at BlogAdda”.